What IF?

You’re a man haunted by those two most terrible words, What If?

The Time Machine

Pursuing Happiness

โ€œWhen you’re young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don’t leap at all because there’s not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there’s no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?โ€

-Sex and the City

Mother’s Day

for the first time in weeks… amidst all the yelling and screaming and misunderstanding … today we spent 3 hours as a family putting together a $200 dollar gazebo in the backyard… how pleasant… right?

Then i attempted at making thai lettuce wrap (turned out very well) … and vinaigrette (?) korean beef salad. yummy yummy in our stummy.

although… at this point i might fail my bio final. But my mom is happy. In fact, both my parents are happy. and… we’re actually all sitting here IN PEACE all together in the living room tonight. My parents are watching the usual Chinese dubbed shows on SBTN and my brother is grading papers … and as for me? … well, i believe i shall try to study a bit …

I know it’s not a BIG celebration or w/e for mother’s day… but for my family… this is actually a very big effort.

May this be the start of… a new beginning.

(i’m hopeful, despite past experiences)

Have a happy mother’s day … everyone. do something nice for your mother and grandmother. If you’re far away… a phone-call just to say hi even will make a difference ๐Ÿ™‚


Despite how real this is… my sensible self either is nonexistent… or is so stubborn it refuses to admit defeat.


A word my heart refuses to comprehend…

and so i too, reach my arms out into the night…. yearning to reach the other side of the shore where illusions of hope flickered in the distance.

And even though in my mind that green light is nothing more than darkness…

… i still Believe (so strongly)